To be or not to be



Well here is the thing... I wonder if someday I'll find the man of my dreams? He is out there somewhere... Isn't he? How would I know? Where should I go? Who, What, Where, When, and Why is the question WE all want answers for.
I'm that kind of girl that always falls for the "Bad Boys" and everytime I learn the same damn hard way over and over again... Because why? They are basically all the same when it boils down to it in one form or another.

I wish I had this magic wand that would put together the "Perfect man for me" with the physical attraction, the materialistic attraction and their values, traits and characteristics that I always wanted in a man.

ALL IN ONE

"Perfect Man For Me"





• What attracts me the most is a man that interacts with my kids and is a positive role model for them.
• Someone with a Genuine personality. 
• I want someone who expresses compassion.
• I want someone who has positive self-esteem, one who knows where he wants to go in life.
• I want a guy who is fun and knows how to use humor.
• I want a someone who understands "Equal" partnership in the relationship.
• I want a man that has a successful background and a stable career.
• I want a man who is independent, stable, and responsible.
• I want a man that loves me for me and doesn't judge me for my past.
• I need a man that will show me unconditional love and lift my spirits with everlasting love.
• I like it when a man will stand in the kitchen with me and cook dinner together while goofing around with laughter.
• I want a man that respects me and my kids and is willing to take that risk to be a family with open arms to my kids as a father figure.
• I need a man I can trust, who is honest, someone who equally listens and tells me everything as I would do the same.
• I need a man that has constructive communication.
• I need a man who likes to have fun with me and also enjoys going out with a whole bunch of our friends together to ALL do something wild and crazy while at the same time making memories that last a life time.
• I need equal partnership in all areas of a relationship.
• I want that fairy tale ending!

BUT...

Here's what I always fall for every time

• I love a man that loves joy rides on his motorcycle with me on the back.
• I like a man that has a biker personality and adventurist lifestyle.
• What attracts me is the looks in a mans eye that just melts you inside.
• I like men with a body of tattoos that has meaning behind each one.
• Or i fall for the ones that are already taken

Now here's the thing when I look for a guy like that I always get the same outcome like a revolving cycle of my past repeating itself! But, this time its just a different guy. There is either insecurities, abuse, addiction, lies, cheating, and constantly arguing!

What the heck is wrong here with this picture..!?!

Why can't I just find a man that is the BEST of both worlds? Everything I WANT to have in a man PLUS the physical and materialistic portion of it.

But, those combinations you just can't find! Because, a successful man would be considered for example a Doctor and a Doctor just doesn't walk around with a body full of tattoos... Because why? In our world and society that's typically labeled "Unprofessional"

It's like if your walking down the street and you see a homeless man and he asks you for help... Typically people would just ignore and keep walking. But, if you saw a man in a business suit asking for help with something usually 99% of the time someone will stop and help.

Really people! Really! What's wrong with people...

" Judging a Book by it's Cover"

Well anyways that's my thing my problem too... Because, I tend to judge a book by it's cover as well because I seem to fall attracted to "bad boys" and if and when I see a man successful I don't even look twice!

Hello, now what the hell is wrong with me!

I think I may know why...











 I mean don't get me wrong... I do love myself! But, not in the way that allows me to step out of my comfort zone and see the

 "Real Me"

It has been said that before you can love someone else you must love yourself first. Not an all consuming, narcissistic kind of love but one that allows you to forgive yourself for the past hurts caused by yourself and for allowing others to hurt you as well through your responses to these situations.

This will open up your heart and clear it of the past. For those of us still harboring feelings of hurt, anger, grief and fear from past relationships both romantic and otherwise, a change in our thinking pattern is needed so we can move towards healthier relationships.

LOVE THE PERSON IN THE MIRROR LOOKING BACK AT YOU…

Understand you are only human and are going to make mistakes from time to time…It’s okay

We are Spiritual beings having a human experience. We are in the school of Life…

We learn by both good and bad experiences…



 When I figure this out and take that step... Every other piece will fall in to place! I need to stop looking for a man and start looking withing myself to find the answers and solve them.

 One day when I least expect it



 I WILL find that "Perfect Man For Me"

Living Happily ever after